Greetings and thanks for stopping by! My name is Maria and I am a mom of 2 boys. When I say boys, I don’t mean little boys. They are 27 and 30 years old but will always be “my boys”. My career is that of a nurse.
I have always been a creative person since I was a small child. To me, nothing is more rewarding than creating something with my own 2 hands. Pretty much every job I have ever held was of a creative nature. I had a long successful career as a hairdresser, then I started a painting company which turned into a nice little remodeling business. I never felt like I worked a day in my life while doing those things. Later in life I became a nurse. It was a secret dream I always had. I was so euphoric when I graduated. I was proud of myself, I still had some brain cells left.
In the beginning of my career I was still in my honeymoon phase. Everyday I would say to myself, your a nurse, you will get so much fulfillment caring for people and bringing them back to a healthy state. Let me tell you, burn out sets in really fast. It is nothing that I expected it to be. NOTHING. Then I started to see the change in myself. I became jaded, hard, impatient. I realized its not about caring for people, its about politics, money, insurance companies, and poor management leading the way.
Fast forward to about a year ago. I’m 54 years old, my boys are grown, I am an empty nester. I live in cyclic phases of work, exhaustion, sleep, each and every day. I have gained 40 pounds, my diet is atrocious and everyday I feel like garbage. I don’t get to spend as much time with my family as I need to..And when I say need, I mean I need to be around them because I always come away feeling better. I’ve lost control of my home. Its been in a constant state of remodel with nothing getting done. I also have no social life. Alot of my focus was also questioning who am I at this point. I have been mommy for so many years, then nurse..who is Maria? I lost all motivation and ambition and just existed through my days. I was miserable and burnt out.
One day it hit me..girl you are 54 years old, snap out of it and get back to happy. I started to change the way I thought. I realized, yes I may be an empty nester, technically, but this nest isn’t empty. Its filled with wonderful creative projects waiting to come to life. Its waiting for big family dinners again. Its waiting for me to refinish my furniture stash so I can show everyone what I’m working on. Its also has a basement full of work out equipment I can use to start getting back to healthy. The one thing left is the nursing job. The job that sucks my sole dry each day and gives me nothing in return. So I have to decided that was the final step back to happy….I have started the transition. It was time to reinvent my life…And this blog was born…..
This blog is and will always be a work in progress. It is my new chapter so to speak. A collection of all the different journeys I am now on for the next half of my life.
I will be posting about the things I am now doing to help me embrace this new chapter. Things that will help me feel better, be happy again and learn how to feel human. I’m going after the things that I want, which in turn will make me a better me.
I hope that some of the things i include here will touch something within you as well.